Well, I suppose 'Terror' is a little overly dramatic, but tomorrow marks a significant milestone in the medical weight loss program: (1) The shakes-only portion is half over; and (2) the medical weight loss program is one quarter finished.
You'd think that I'd be thrilled, you know, in a kind of, 'Yeahaw - Only six more weeks before I get to eat some solid food' kind of way. Well, there IS that! But there are also the gnawing thoughts: (1) 'What if I can't handle food, and gain weight back - like all the other times'; and (2) 'Oh no, there are ONLY 6 more weeks left - what if I don't lose the weight that I want to lose?'
I guess I'll just have to close my eyes and try to just trust that the medical program will work. It's hard though - very disquieting. Perhaps I will have to lock the scales away in the spare bedroom so that I'm not tempted to step on every day - the joy of seeing a sliver of weight come off is WONDERFUL, but it's hard when days go by and the scale is frozen in place!
And I guess there's something I was reminded by a fellow Optifaster - I feel fantastic and look good, even if I didn't lose another pound! I'll try to cling to that and be patient.
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